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in a rut.

















way out?

- Proved itself to me this weekend -

- It DOES exist -

- All you lot who are a bunch of cunts to people for no reason -

- It will come back to sort you out -

Hiyaz!

I thought I should update this seeing as I haven't done one for ages, and because I am incredibley bored tonight.

BASICALLY I went for a 'nap' at about 8pm as my sleeping pattern is all fucked up from partying ... its a hard life I tell ye. Anyway, aye I went to sleep and had a pure awful nightmare type thing - to summarise I smashed Dahl in the face with a tennis ball and blood was coming out his mouth, then I watched a video of Ally McBeal being decapitated. It was totally bizarre... then I woke up and felt dead scared as there is nobody in the flat (Ella is at her parents). So I went on the trusty old internet for some cyber-company and Geo suggested we go out for a wee midnight munch, so he picked me up and we went for burger n chips! He is a hero.

Aye so thats where I am at now. Sitting in front of the PC too bored/scared to go back to bed... Gus is one of the few people on msn with any chat - look what its come to!!! 

Recent stuff which sticks in my mind for some reason or other;

Getting really passionate about mars drinks with valz.
Laughing at Dav's dancing at a party the other night.
Ella's big long blue skirt.
An amazing walk I went on one day, culminating in sitting at that muriel thing in Kelvingrove feeling as calm as I have felt ever I think.
When Booka Shade played 'In White Rooms' in the arches and big Kieran shielding me from cunts bumping into me.
Gus, Macky, John, actually anycunt, FLEEIN on Ella's bed rolling aboot mad wae it. Junkie basturts.

As far as that thing (life) goes...well nae news really. STILL WORKING AWAY AYE. Had my exams, went ok so far I think. Got sociology & anthropology exam on Wednesday so need to do some study for that tomorrow (should be doing it now but I am the definition of a procrastinator). Going to Leeds with Dan on Friday for the weekend to visit Russell, looking forward to a wee change of scenery.

Also majorly looking forward to summer. Planning to go nuts, not that I've needed an excuse for that over the past, 8 years? Oh dear...... When will I have weans and settle doon?

On that subject its been quite weird recently. As much as I hate to admit it, it does seem that I have become part of that partying scene. Well I dont know if there is such a thing as a 'scene' anyway but I keep turning up at these parties everyweekend and its always the same people there, people who I always thought were scenester fannies! Does that make me one? Most of them are actually really sound, so fuck it. I'd rather be at parties than in ma bed efter the garage via Mr Chips.

My A-Sexuality also seems to have increased, which is shite. I do not find myself attracted to ANYONE these days. I think I might have some serious mental problems. I think I may have been attracted to a guy on the tube the other day, not sure as I might have just liked his trainers. I suppose thats a good start though!

Music - recently been obsesed with Junior Boys, The Field, Joanna Newsom, Booka Shade. All totally stunning. Joanna Newsom's album 'The Milk-Eyed Mender' is so gorgeous. Wan track in particular called 'en gallop' is truly a work of genius. I think it is what it would sound like inside a cloud. Sublime. If you can be bothered go here;

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2-41kjCXBb0

That is a link to some piano geek playing it on the piano, cant find a link to her playing it. Its turly beautiful though, its one of my comedown favourites.

I want a harp.

xx

P.S All this Maddie shite. Pfft. Stalin once said ''One death is a tragedy, One thousand deaths is a statistic''.